@Kandykindalove

2010-03-09T20:13:00.005+08:00

Moved back to tumblr. I think i like tumblr more. HEheeeeeee
~~Http://loveor-lust.blogspot.com~~
http://twojanuaryten.tumblr.com
I'll not change url alr, promisepromise (like always) but if i change this time, you shd know what happen. You-get-what-i-mean :D So don't curse us! Peace all.

PS: Tumblr rocks seriously (Y)

2010-03-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

Hi owls. I'm supa bored now. Just cooked spag for myself, and kept eating tidbits too. Cool, feel so skinny oudda the sudden :)

I'm tired. Facebook time.

2010-03-04T08:35:00.007+08:00

because baby fell asleep as usual but I've ta go back home.. so I always look at him sleep, thinking if I should wake him up or let him sleep a little longer...

So I often will start facebooking, blogging and stuff, and that's the reason why I'm here.

.. and I wanted to post this actually

..until Baby suddenly woke up sleepily and tell me, " wake me up after 10 minutes "

So auto today uh, heh. Don't needa headache on whether I should wake him up anotttt :)

I let you sleep 10 more minutes k!
(Or maybe till I finish this entry, don't say I not good uh!)

Hehehehe.

So very random idea, supposed to dine @ Citysq with my kid Tsz, but changed idea to Bugis as I wanted to get stuffs from there. So met around 9 at mrt. Finished 100$ in 20 minutes or so. I think my talent of spending money is improving, cool. Met baby, Vincent, Adrian & Chloe at big bird for dinner. Then the couple left while rest of us had excursion.. Changi for Och. And see bapoks nearby. Then see planes, and the guys wanted to disturb other cars, aha (lazy to elaborate) Then to Mount faber. And lastly to Sentosa. Crazy ideas indeed, traveling around in the midnight.. got me so tired.

Poor baby is tired already but he insisted on sending me back...... Hai, tsk. Okay I think it's time for me to try waking him up!!!

and I think I've made the wrong choice to let him sleep longer cause he seem to be sleeping soundly and ignoring me nowwww! #*@@#$%&*!!

because i want you

2010-03-03T10:19:00.008+08:00

Morning peeps. I'm supa bored naw.. :(

I'm currently at mac, alone. Yes at this hour, 1020am. Super bored at home so decided to come mac to chill and enjoy the morning atmosphere. Lol, seriously Citysq rockz big shit. Hehe. So near ta my house too! + all my fav food + can xfer funds easily hehe.

Bored ttm. Everyone is either in school, or sleeping. I have no idea why I can wake up early at 8.30am in the morning and can't fall back to sleep! I was awake for the past 29hours (wanted to beat Peiqin's record but still can't lol) yet I slept so little! What a miracle.. Still have ta meet baby at night later. Hai, hopefully I don't fall asleep later..

I like Citysq's mac, their wireless connection is faster than usual macs. Hehe.

Went out with Daryl yesterday down to Cityhall for dinner @ Hk cafe. Our outing was super random cause we were like chatting bout food on msn! Wanted to eat sakae at first.. but decided on Xinwang aftermath cause my curry chicken craving was bigger. Hehe, their sauce is like.. thumbs up! Heh, shopped around there, bought bangles and headbands as well as a cute pair of jap slippers! Damn adorable and me like it vv much! Chilled at mac, chit chatted bout childhood stuff.

Reminds me bout my pri sch days, being a "Zai nu" at home. Everyday sleep late at night because I'm playing computer games, esp my fav Gunbound with Derek chua I rmbr, aha. Then sleep till morning 8am and auto wake up play com all the way till night! And sleep. And yes my routine was like that for few years!! And I'm not sick of it.

So much of Zai nu right, hehe.

Headed home around 11pm, super tired! Texted with baby till I fall asleeeeep.

I like my blogsong. Super cute and sweet, found in Bb's memory card. Ohya, baby got me my phone alrrrrr, so happy! Can return him his phone alr. Heh alright I gonna surf around the cyberworld to kill time and continue eating as well. Feel so fat sigh!

2010-03-02T14:33:00.010+08:00

I'm very sleepy. Haven't sleeping for the past approx 18 hours. Have been sorting out my personal things and now it's done and over. I hope the problem will stop haunting me again pleasethx.

Dead tired now.

And I'm sorry Bb, for all the troubles I've caused last night. And I can assure you that you're the only one I love now.

+ Thanks all for the concern! I'm okay already.

Dinner + window shopping later! But I think I'm going to spend money again but who cares rightz. I want new clothez! + M)phosis having sales, (winks)
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Reupdated @ 1557.
Totally forgotten that it's our 2nd month today.

Happy 2nd monthsary baby.
*MY WISH (lol): Don't be too naggy Bb, if not you'll grow older faster. I still want my ginna looking bf instead of an old-looking old man! Aha kkkkkk joking serious now.

I know it's not a well spent day because of all my emo thinking last night. But I really appreciate the things you've done for me over the weeks.

Like worrying for me most of the time, bandaging twice for me when I sprained my ankle, drawing pony on both of the bandages still! And yes don't worry it's still in my rooooom :) the porridge from Chinatown, the pink hp strap, texting 'happy v day to my dearest baby' when we're watching movie during valentines, looking for the guinea pig all around sg as v day prezzie for me, assuring me that you'll be there for me no matter what whenever I'm feeling emo and all, acting cute to me, being understanding when I wanna go back to work at pub although my time limit is only 1 month, trying all means and way to make me happy and many many more to be listed out. I won't forget those silly little things you did to me, or for me. They're all in my heart. Even if we talk things out/argue, we'll eventually hug together and made up. All these are remembered inside me. :)

And I'm glad that I've met you. And I supposed both of us don't wanna lose each other rightttt? :)

Love you.

K gonna continue replying texts to my naggy bf! Haha. (K)

Tripped on e.

2010-03-01T21:35:00.005+08:00

Sup peeps. Been days since I've last posted over at this space! Reason is still the same, and yes you're right, cause I'm over at boyfriend's place for the past few days. :)

Swimming with love on Friday. Sneaked into condo nearby my place. And I think we both are super crazy, like swimming early in the morning at 8am? Super tired. Kfc for breakfast, so much of cutting weight/staying healthy! Headed to town with Ahpei aftermath. Supposed to movie with Bb and Vincent but I fell alseep at Cine, damn unglam so decided to go home but Bb came ta meet me below my place and over to his place.

Movies on Sat with Bb and Sz. Supposed to watch All well ends well or 72 tenants of prosperity BUT seems like the cinemas have stop showing them already, hai so sad and disappointed! I wanna waaaatchhhh. Pouts. Anyw, we changed to the Hot summer days. A pretty sweet and cute show. Not bad, I like the pink aircon!! How I wish I have one pink coloured instead of the dull gray aircon in my room.

Kbox on Sunday with Bb, vincent, his boss and wife @ Cine till 6plus in the morning. Bb so cute lor, he asked what songs I wanna listen and I told him my all time fav Jaychou's duan le de xuan and he listened it once and said he has photographed the song in his head and started singing, end up still wrong!! Hahahahahaha. Okay, I know.. I appreciate your effort baby. :))))

Slept for almost 13 hours today, hehehehe. What should I do later? Head down to mac to chill or stay at home and nua? Ah, bored!

I think I'm getting a pink cam soon. And T715, you're mine!

2010-02-25T19:17:00.009+08:00

I just read my archives over at my old tumblr site and they just hurt so much.
Then I realized I don't like the past, at all. (Keep on going girl, I know you can)

I miss Bb, for once. :|
Don't miss the chances life is giving you to spend with the people you love..
Remember that in this life, there are no rewinds.

Remember it deep in your heart, Leyi. You know how it feels..
Don't let the feeling of regret haunt you back again.

Meeting sweetie @ 9pm later (K)
Swim, swim!

Supposed to watch All well ends well yesterday with Bb and Vincent, but due to baby's scammed info from Cathay site, we've wasted a trip down to town. Went over to Bb's house to acc him for awhile before heading back home for bed! :)

2010-02-24T16:31:00.009+08:00

You once said loving her soul and sacrificing for her were all serious, what about now?
I doubt so.

Hi, currently at Bb's house. Woke up not long. Damn bored. Bibi doesn't want to come out and accompany me, hai so naughty. Whata do?

Gym + swimming tmr + friday!

2010-02-23T23:10:00.005+08:00

I like the song 他的风筝 esp its chorus part alot. A meaningful love song and lyrics! Can't stop playing the song, so touching. :(

Finally had my hair done!
+ got my navel pierced back! (Y)

Met Peipei & Ahzhen ystd. Able to control myself with shopping but still spend around 200+. Hai, I really really needa control my spending srsly! Met the dolphin girls at Bugis, miss everyone of them! Like Lydia, Steph, etc. All my fav working colleagues (L) Oh ya, saw Shirley too. But sad thing is she's no longer working thr, sigh. People come, people goes. That's life I guess.

Met King @ Steamboat place at Havelock road. Had company dinner/meeting. And yes, I'll be going back to help King. And nope, it's not the old whales. :)

Met Bb & Vincent after dinner, fetched love from her house and to beach. Her idea, and yes she's like a girl without childhood, lol. Playing with the catching bear machine, caught a Metoyou bear with rose. Damn cute! Chilled nearby and headed back to Bb's place around 6 in the morning. Damn tired.

And I'm tired nowwww, but still have to wait for him to come over to fetch me over to his place. Ah, I'm like falling asleep!!

Love is like playing mind games

2010-02-21T18:01:00.003+08:00

Good evening earthlings!
Just reached home not long from baby's house. Supposed to do hair today but yeah expected, kept lazing on bed and there, time flies. I knew it would happen so, I've decided to stay at home today and wake up early tmr. Town tmr with babes! Hehe, means shopping I suppose? Spend around 100+ over on the net yesterday while I'm alone at Bb's house, too bored ha. Can't wait for the items! Hope the items will arrive to sg asap :) Hehe.

Watched Wolfman few days ago with Bb, Sz, Pei, Vincent, Adrian and their friend @ Iluma. I thought it WOULD be a nice gruesome show, but indeed, a nc16 movie won't be as exciting as a m18 as usual. Don't really like it. Actually the story is quite similar to the 2 movies I used to watch with Peipei in the past, I forget which.

I wanna watch All well ends well & 72 tenants of prosperity! :(

Eek, Im hungry. Dinner soon.

Say hi to my cutie Bibi,

What's love?

2010-02-18T16:56:00.004+08:00

Love is 'bout giving someone the ability to break your heart, but trusting him/her not to.
But I don't like heartbreaks. They're so painful.
I've this habit of backing off once I feel any pain inside. I'm weird, no? Or running away from situation? Hmm..

I think I'm emo. Isit cause my period is coming or something? Ha, maybe. Don't mind me being emo in facebook and blog yeah. (force a smile out!)

Meeting sweetie later to 1st Tattoo to see my handsome artist, Anthony! Aha joking, she needa do her touch up so yeap. Guess we'll be staying out late or smth. Gonna tahan till tmr morning to get things done.

Will update tmr with more picts, heh seeya peeps. Miss me not :-*

Fuck you leyi, fuck you

2010-02-17T17:30:00.015+08:00

I don't like the feelings I'm feeling now. I don't like the pain I had previously that is coming back again. No, this has nothing to do with Bb. It's my fault, all my fault. I can't help it. Why am I taking so much time this time? I'm not like this. Me, Leyi, is not like that. I'm strong. I can forget things easily. Yes. Where's the old me? The one who used to be strong and all?

Ha, I didn't expect such things would happen to me, yes to me, Leyi. Joke. Fuck you leyi, wake the fucking idea up please. What fuck are you thinking? Why can't you fucking get over it up till now? Fuck you, please wake up.

So what if he's the first one who tore your heart apart? So what? Everyone has his and her first time and you're just having your first. Don't think bout people in your past anymore, cus' there will always be a reason why they didn't make it to your future. Get over it, Leyi. I know you can. Stand up from where you fell and fucking move on. And you should too, thank him for giving you a lesson for not taking people seriously in the past, and to let you have a taste of your own medicine.

Yes, that's right. Thanks for changing me and made me cast all my bad habits/temper/attitude/selfishness away. I'm glad to know that I'm treating my current bf better than how I used to treat all the previous guys. And I'm glad that he's different from all the others.

And I'm sorry baby, I know the same old problem has surfaced again. But I felt so much better after saying everything out. I don't like the pain lingering inside me and I can't tell you how I feel. You might not seen what and who I was in the past. But I'm no longer strong enough to put on a brave front like how I am in the past. I tried to swallow the pain and feelings, but I can't help but tears just flowed down after sending the last sms to you. But baby, get this in your head. I'll do what I say; which is to get over things asap and to continue this journey, with you.

Trust me, I will. I don't wanna see you, or both of us being unhappy inside just because I'm the one who's causing problems everytime.. sorry.

.. and this is what I wanna reply after you replied me last night.

Bibi!

2010-02-16T20:16:00.008+08:00

Few days ago, boyfriend told me he'll get me a valentines present that no one has given me before. But in my head I knew it must be some common gift, how could I not receive before?

So like yesterday, he said he would surprised me with the gift. Got up his car, and he asked me to turn away so I wouldn't see what he was holding. And to my surprise it was a Guinea pig which I've long wanted to get! Though I told him I would've no reaction like looking touched or happy, but I really appreciate the effort he took to get what I like/want. Thanks Bb, love you :-*

Her name is Bibi. Hehehe. So cute.
And baby said her hair machiam using Gatsby to style. Lol!

Happy valentines (F)

2010-02-13T23:38:00.005+08:00

to all out there. Hope you guys have fun with your love ones at this very special day :)

& Im meeting bf in less than an hours' time xx.

PS to SZ: Yeah Imma big L, see I told you :(

Supposed to go back sec sch ytd with clique, but all were sleeping/busy! So slept for an hour before meeting Ahpei @ Lavender to get things done and did hair there. And I guess I'll be re-bonding my hair real soon. After cny, most probably. :) Daryl came, and we left to Bdm, our fav old eating place. Miss the food there! :s Chenghui came and we left for town. 313, Ion, Cine, 313. Steph came later. Chilled outside 313, the guys left and we girls left to Esplanade. Chilled outside Popeye's. Bf and Vincent came. Went over to look for Wiji. Long time no see babe! Gave her a hug! Heh, then Pei left for club and 4 of us went home after the guys ate at nearby love's house.

Talked things out upon reaching bf's house. Hate times like this but still yeah, everything was sorted out I guess and made up. Hopefully such things won't surface again.. I know its my bad everytime. Will try to change my bad habits.. Ahwell don't wanna talk about unhappy stuff on this very special day :)

Love you bf. :)

2010-02-10T06:33:00.002+08:00

Met love, her mummy & bro for dinner at Citysq juz now, then both of us had heart to heart talk, and homed around 2am.

Then sent a super super long text to her around 4am because I felt uneasy the whole night thinking about some stuffs, felt so much better after saying all out! I guess we've more to talk about later when we're up for our shopping!

& also texted wtih boyfriend about the problem too. Thumbs up for me aha, cause I usually don't like telling stuffs to ppl, especially bf. I was thinking of keeping it from him until he tell me how good he treated me and I started feeling kinda guilty, so I decided to be a honest kid, aha. (Y)

Cny is coming, = $$$, = new clothes!
Happygirlme. (winks)

2010-02-08T03:51:00.005+08:00

Bf is cooking maggie for me nowww, (L)
So I'll blog a short one now! :)

Double date juz now with Karen & Vincent.
Met them at Iluma, dined at The Manhattan fish market. Vincent never fails to make me laugh with his orders seriously. Soft shell crab the other time @ Thai Xpress, and now the sobsters (lobsters)! Aha, seriously damn joke. Can't stop laughing over it.

Chilled around, and bf drove over to some ulu mountain/hills whatever, saw people letting go big lanterns like hot air balloons, cool. Then all headed home and over to his place.

That's how my sunday is spent :)

Cool lor now I see my bf sweeping floor? Like got talent uh lol! Can be part time housewife. Aha, cute. K joking.

Anyway, I've officially quit Dolphin/whales and that's for real this time. I'm not going back. Cause things are juz so different now. Groundless assumptions.. misunderstandings. It's juz a small mistake and he was reasoning/lecturing me as if I've did something really wrong and I can't accept it. Oh well. It's over anyway.
I'm so gonna miss my colleagues there seriously. And people whom I once had fun with. Don't bear to leave everyone and everything juz like this.

Needa find a day job soon to cover my heavy expenses. :(
I want go shopppinnngggggggggggg, and buy manymany clothes! :( :(

&& My bf like so .........
Keep asking me eat my maggie but actually he wants to eat my share toooooo!!! Lolol, likaaaa pig.

Baixo.

2010-02-06T21:50:00.004+08:00

Celebrated Claudia's birthday few days ago @ Dolphin.

Dolphin girls (L).

I've not been updating this space lately, cause partially I'm lazy, as always.. and I don't really have the chance to touch lappy as I'm over at bf's house. Yup, 've been spending time after work with him almost everyday, sweet. He's vv cute also, aha. ^^

Alright, needa prepare now to meet my potatolove. She's waiting for me at my staircase!!! And I'm still blogging here, aha sorry love.

Tata! :)

2010-02-02T17:33:00.012+08:00

Haven't been updating much here, cuz I'm really busy, no? Nah actually its because I've been spending time at bf's house. He don't like me using comp cause he says I always throw him aside whenever Im using comp. Aha.

Oh btw ppl, I've juz changed number! Couple numbers with boyfriend sumr. Aha, his idea, sweet. Don't contact me at the 9114xxxx alr, cause it's not in use anymore.

Soooo, yeah life has been the same all these while. But hey, I think Feb is not a good month for me. Many unhappy + unlucky things happened since Friday.

Sprained ankle (its swollen now, pouts), almost quarreled with boyfriend for at least 3 times. Misunderstanding.. but we've talked things out and it's settled alr. Hope the problem won't surface againnnnnn~ cause I don't like arguing with ppl. People who know me long enough should know how strong I react last time when I argue/quarrel with boyfriends.. right. So I don't wanna use that kind of tone to talk to him, aha later he run off! Hehe.

Today's our 1st month, and yeah I know we'll last, rightttt :)
Loveyou! ♥

First boyfriend whom I took photo with, lol! So weird.

xx

Wynn's birthday!
Cine, Bq, Martin.

Love secondary cliqueeeee!
Seeyou guys soooooooooooon. Misszes (L)

2010-01-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th birthday, sist!
Hope you like ta birthday specs & cupcakes!
More pictures to be uploaded soooooon!

Oh oh, and it's Ian's bd today/tmrw?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AS WELL.

Seeyou guys later, probably :D

2010-01-28T19:27:00.007+08:00

Miss my pink pony :(
Talk to baby last night when I'm over at his house about many things. Like how we first talked, got close, him buying porridge for me when I thought he wouldn't, then meeting up often, texting everyday, bla bla. Make me shy only, lol. Oh, and I finally got to know how we got together! Hahaha, in the lift on 2nd of Jan. And I'm pretty sure I was drunk that day cause I don't have any recollection of it, aha funny.

Aha, love you deep deep. ♥
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Tmd, gonna get prepaid due to the bursting bills! Initially I thought getting a line would cut down costs but it was worse than the days I used prepaid. Roflmao. Ok getting prepaid isn't a bad idea too. At least I get to shake off some stalkers + save money, too.

Working later. And Sist's birthday celebration tmrw. Yay, another gathering with clique! (L)

2010-01-28T01:45:00.005+08:00

Met Sz baby on the previous day to slack. Cool, illusion twice which I never had before. Then she slept over @ my place ystd. Made her my ai xin sandwiches & maggie mee. Feel honoured uh! Woke up around 12plus due to construction thingy, damn irritated. And also got irritated by some bxtch, srsly feel like slapping the fxck oudda her. Bathed and went out to City sq mall. Had ljs. Walked around, bought stuffs, argh fug. My saving plans gone pouts. :(

Trained to Plazasing. Cotton on, spent $60+ on clothes, yeah so much of saving money I know. And worse part is.. I spent almost $50 on playing the catching-bear machine!!!!!! Though its a little too much but it's worth the while. Pink pony and minnie, like nice only ;) :>

Although I spent too much, way too much to be exact, but still satisfied with my buys, srsly. Shopping cures everything, (winks)

Bf came, over to City sq to have dinner and sent Sz back home and to his house to acc him. :$

Money saving plan

2010-01-26T18:51:00.008+08:00

1. NO shopping
2. NO mac/fast food deliveries
3. NO dinners @ restaurants
4. LESS smoking
5. MORE working hours

Have ta keep this 5 golden rules in my head, no I mean MUST.. for at least this whole week, or might extend till the next if I don't cough up enough money to pay back installments to gdma monthly; $200, bills; $500, daily expenses; $30.

Hate end of months. Fml, seriously.

Doubt I can really get this work out, but I'll try! AND I MEAN IT.

So please don't fuckingly ask me go out and spend money, ESP TAN SHUZHEN! Don't tempt me!!!!

Gonna stay at home and be nun if there's not a need to go out. @.@
Only slacking applicable ahahaha thankyou.

Fvck, friday needa spend money again. For me, foc can? Love you all deep deep hehe. (L)
K joking, sayo!

My weekends.

2010-01-25T16:49:00.006+08:00

Currently @ Andy lau's house ahahaha.
Saturday.
Met up with love @ Bugis. Waited for her like half an hour? Aha, luckily I coincidentally saw Sist & co, so they accompanied me to wait for her to arrive. And it was Yk's birthday! Happy belated :) Bid goodbye to them and went on separate ways. Went to Ljs for dinner, then to street. Bought shorts. Met the Peiqin & Steph, and shopped around Street again. Steph went off first, and 3 of us went to Boatquay ask they wanted to drink over at my workplace.

Waited for Raymond & Ian to reach @ Bk. Had our water balance, aha nevermind if you don't understand. Oh, and saturday's atmosphere was really good. Like back to the old days.. aha. Miss those days :)

Oh and sad thing.. I lost my pretty hotpink wallet, with $150+ and Ic :(
Damn luckily luh! Need to cough up money for ic, and worse thing, MY PHONE BILL! Know what? It's $500+. Exaggerating!!!!! I saw the list and found out it was because of the long phonecalls I had in Malaysia last month.

Hai, sad. Needa work harder for money wise now. Means I'll have lesser time with my Andy lau-looking boyfriend now. Aha, sad.

Sunday.
Double dating @ Cine with Vincent & Karen. Vincent like irritating only, keep disturb me. Hai, small boy aha. Watched movie. The tooth hurts. Interesting show. The rock was kinda cute in it. With the tutu and wings, aha. Homed around 4 in the morning.

And as for today,
Met Audy lau, lololol. He's very irritating keep tickling me, like 2 mins ago! And he is asking if I'm writing his bad stuffs. I say he Andy lau sia, where got bad stuff rightttttt. Good stuff! SO IM NOT LYING, aha. Loser! (L)

Meeting love tmrw! City sq, hehehe.

2010-01-23T14:52:00.004+08:00

This bigbig bear has been with me for about 1yr 4months. I guess it's the best birthday present I've recieved all these years. I never fail to hug it to sleep every night. And always cling onto it tightly whenever I'm feeling sad or crying till I fall asleep.

It has really been a great companion all these months, thanks :)
xx

Slept for very very long hours yesterday and got him worried all day long, partly also because of my facebook posting which got him worried too. Sorry, I know its my fault this time. I'm feeling really guilty now, hai. Hopefully everything will get back to track, soon.

Sometimes, I just like to keep things to myself. As I feel that its better that way.

Saturday today,
Meeting Sist, Sz, Peipei & Steph later to Peni. & I'm workg tonight. Quite reluctant to go but luckily it's starting at 12.

2010-01-22T16:38:00.007+08:00

Felt like something is tearing inside.. I don't like this feeling, at all.

I'm tired. And I wanna sleep now.. but can't.

2010-01-21T15:32:00.011+08:00

You asked what I liked about you yesterday, I told you I don't know.
Cause there's no particular reason, but just you, and still you. :)
xox
Bored! I'm all alone at his house again. Aha, can't stop thinking about the sentence he said when he's about to go back camp, " I'm going back to save the country liao " Aha wth like joke.

Went back to work yesterday, saw a few regulars. And best thing is, Lydia & XiaoM is back ta work! I'm so happy to see them, aha. Sweet. Supposed to gather together with Germaine, Leeyee, Lydia & Stephy after work to Germ's house, hai. Can't go in the end because he doesn't let. Our ladies' night! Sorry girls :(

Headed back to home to bathe and changed before heading to the fit+handsome's house! Aha, he said it himself, lolol.

Canto tmrw, god bless!
Meeting sweetie to have breakfast tgt before going thr, hehe.

And lemme tell you, ice cream soda is so damn addictive. And Im craving for one now, no nao. Haha, (winks @ Shuzhen!)

2010-01-20T16:45:00.005+08:00

Found this while cleaning up my room! Likka cute uh.
Haven't slept for today after reaching home around 6am. Sigh, gonna work later at 9pm. Hopefully I won't fall asleep or feel cranky.

Cleaned up my room juz now. Like so many rubbish only. And found many clothes which I thought 've lost it! Aha, cool. Anyway I can't stop staring at the blue half printed beach-lookalike top! Seriously chio ttm. Can't wait for sat, so gonna wear it! Aha, xxxxxxxxcited, winks(!). & Camwhore like thr's no tmrw, hehe.

I'm vvvvvv bored now.

Ohya, something random. I realized that start of 2010 isn't a good one. Many broken strings around.. god bless. There'll be a better one ahead, and I'm glad I've found mine.

Anyw I'm feeling so sorry for elbowing his lips till it split (I think) yesterday.. yes, I've been feeling bad. Not on purpose, and I'm sure he knows it. Aha, lovelove. ♥ (Dont say I never love you, if you miss this then too bad!)

And I won't forget he used msn to talk to me because he was angry (or feigning like he's angry?) when he's juz beside me, wattahell aha. Off ta facebook!

2010-01-19T17:48:00.004+08:00

Shopping makes me a happy girl
Man, I don't wanna be a shopping addict. I practically spend 200$ over less than 8 items yesterday. But I'm happy to say that I'm satisfy with my buys. Haha, happy girl me. Now I'm shopping online, hehe. But not many things caught my eye except a few items from Nrwzd, and yeap I've ordered them over the spree.

Note to Shuzhen baby: I left my phone at home and 'm currently @ Ziyuan's place. Don't think I can meet you tday, :( Sorry love, love you deep deep k. Maybe we'll go have mac supper later at night, will call you when I reach home!

Back and fourth

2010-01-18T12:35:00.012+08:00

Many flashbacks rushed into my head like waves crushing into the sea this morning..

Got back home not long. Went Cantoment to report this morning @ 10. 've to go for reporting again on friday, hai. Then headed to Cheeatown with Sz baby & her mummy to get some stuff. Her mummy damn cute srsly, sibei geh yan! Haha, then lunched at nearby market and trained back home around 12.

Gonna meet sweetie later to town & bugis for shopping, (winks). Shopping makes me a happy girl, hehehe. ♥

Ohya, I'll be taking up day job soon. 'm very sick of night life job. And I hate looking into mirrors now. Ever since I work in pub, my face condition all like fucked up only. Miss my pimple free face during secondary school, pouts! But yup, day job soon. Most prolly at Alvin's pet shop! Taking care of pets and playing with them, hehe so cuteee! Bunnies, guinea pigs, hamsters.. omg haha. Feeling so excited. And pay wise is rather reasonable, special rate sumr. Lol!

And I've so much in mind to do once I take up day job! (winks)

Sneeeeeeze,

2010-01-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

like mad. I think the weather's too chilly. Keep sneezing after bathing, even now. Hate sneezing, make me pekchek only.

Court tmrw. Guess everything will be fine :)
I still rmbr someone told me, " Ever sit in a police car before? I think its really fun and cool leh. I want try! " & the next moment we're being handcuffed inside the car and off to cantoment. -.-

Damn stupid.

Gathering yesterday was pretty nice!
Raymond, Yifeng, Peiqin, Stephanie, Sohwynn, Daryl, Shuzhen, Didi, Chenghui & Andrew were thr. It was like going back to Secondary school days, hehe cool. Like the feeling where everyone gathers together and joke around. Miss those days though. Hope there's more ta come. (smiley)

Went bugis, met the peepors. Then to Bigbird to have our dinner. Miss the food thr, ha. Then bused down to Boatquay. Settled down at Bk cafe and discussed which pub ta go, ended up at Martin.

As for me, I ran two places. Dolphin and Martin, cuz Andrew didn't had enough ppl. Sorry guys, didn't accompany you guys much. But I guess you ppl had fun with da indian poker righttt. Damn stupid, hahaha.

Few got drunk, chilled at Bk, then left.

Met my idiot boyfriend and slept over at his place. Hai, he damn bad keep pulling out of the bed. So sleepy now. :/

Moments2treasure.

2010-01-15T14:59:00.007+08:00

I think I've grew slimmer. RIGHT? Hahaha, shy :$ K joke only.
Stayed over at yuan's place for the past 2 days. Supposed to be simple and sweet 2 days but yesterday he do stun. Idiot. I thought he was angry w me because of the phonecall that Patrick made. Then I tried to talk to him, asking what happened, he just ignore me and pushed me away. Then I got tired of hoaxing him then he tried to attract my attention!!! So I gave in to him and tried hoaxing him again but he pushed me away again! :@

Then I decided to sleep and talk things out the next day. Texted him while he went back to camp.. guess what he tell me! He said it was nothing and he was feeling bored so wanna disturb me. And said it was my ringtone which caused him to wake up.

IDIOT RIGHT!
I thought I did something wrong lor.

Hai, cheat my feelings only. :@ :@ :@

Meeting Shuzhen baby later, shopping! Sales sales sales, here I come! (winky!)

Chipmunks = monkey, wtf lol.

2010-01-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

Monday.

Met Sz @ Cityhall mrt. Went mac to chill while waiting for Peipei. Headed to Peni, 1st tattoo cause Sz wanna put tattoo. Asked about my geisha all these also, 1.5k. Cheap cheap! So tempted but hai, somebody scold me for wanting to put :( So still considering..

Went to Boatquay bk cafe for pei's dinner. Then saw Fabian, and gerald. Texted gerald and he asked us to join them. Went next stop. Felt awkward cause my workplace is like upstairs only. King texted me and asked me to go up. He talked to me all these, hai. Knew it anyway.

Played indian poker and all hail the king. Funnnnn! Sz kept losing. Haha, suay. After finishing the martell and beer, headed to Martin next. Daryl opened black label. Ew, like chivas. Don't really like, but luckily I didn't lose much in the games, haha. Played 5 10 with Ian, loser drink chilli. Lol!!! I nearly lost. :)

Saw Meiqi there, ha. Then she ask me gai xiao her if I find another pub job, as well as victoria. Haiyo. Sad thing is, I've gone back to Dolphin again.

K i know its stupid................. Long story. Nevermind.

Okay Ziyuan is below my house already, hehe. And I'm still blogging wtf lol. Gotta go, buhbye!

Bueaitful you,

2010-01-11T11:00:00.010+08:00

After going through so much in th past, I've told myself to cherish every single thing now and not take things for granted. Am so gonna change my bad habits towards ppl, esp to the ones who're close to me. :)

Yuan has gone for reservice already argh. Saw his last text, sweet. But I haven't even text him before he goes to the ulu island cause I slept early last night :( But I just replied him though, hope there's reception over at his side. 11 days, hai. So long.. almost 2 weeks! Hopefully time passes quickly and he'll be back asap.

Meeting Ahpei & Potato later, mwahz. Gonna continue watching Hi my sweetheart.

2010-01-10T09:27:00.003+08:00

Finally hoax him to sleep after one and a half hour. He kept coughing, hai tsk. Ask him see doct also don't want :@

By the way I just saw two phrases from my msn list + facebook and find them rather true.

Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for him/her, even if it means swallowing the sad reality.

Ignorance is an act of rejection. Whereas rejection is the anticipation of condemnation.

Don't you agree? :)

Alright, I'm gonna continue watching the Taiwan tv series, Hi my sweetheart (Hai pai tian xin)! You guys should go watch it over the youtube too, vv cute show! Hehe, sayo!

Sisters + Bff outing! :)

2010-01-10T07:00:00.012+08:00

Okay gonna blog fast while Yuan is eating cause he'll sure disturb me once he finish eatinggggggg! :@

Met Sz, Wynn & Daryl below my house's mrt few days ago (shit I forgot when). I'm supposed to meet them @ Boonkeng mrt though, hehe. Late queen (winks). Alrightz, then we trained over to Woodlands and bused down to Central as they wanted to do their eyebrown piercing.

Guess how we found the place? Through my fantastic awesome "feel"! Cool or what. Female's instinct is strong, and its true! Ha. So yeah, they were quite nervous at first, but after they finished piercing, they were kpkb-ing at each other saying the other's piercing is nicer. Seriously guys, I think mine was nicer that time. HAHA. K, joke. I wanted to pierce back mine too. But on a second thought, I decided not to cause I'll look very lian-ish. Me civilised 8)

Camwhore nearby, and I went home aftermath as I was very tired and eyes were hurting me quite badly. :( Too dry I guess. They went to Bendemeer though. And I heard that Peipei, Yf, Steph & co were there too! Argh! Miss the chance on meeting + catching up with the girls.

Imma meeting Ahpei on Monday though. To Peni to see tattoo. Hehe. Gonna put full back Geisha + Sakura sooooooon! Can't wait!! :D

xx

(Pictures not in order)

K he has finished eating and disturbed me.

Brb.

Webcammy!

2010-01-07T17:49:00.008+08:00

Was @ Mac yesterday with
SHUZHEN! :)

We played with webcam and laughed so madly till people around mac looked at us in a weird manner! Haha. Fun :>

(Decided not to post the umglam picts alr, lol)

xx
BFF FOREVER!
xx

XOXO

It was like a moment of losing you

2010-01-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

Met Yuan, Vincent & their friends for movie @ Cine. Was actually quite lazy to meet them cause I fell asleep while waiting for Ziyuan to drive over, and like super loooong! Saw Johnny there, wootz. So text him Happy birthday & asked whether they're hiring over at Liquidforty. Not sure if I'm gg over there, he say he'll make arrangements.. hmm.

Watched The Treasure Hunter. Not very nice nor very boring show. Yeah, I wanna watch chipmunks!!!! :)

Haha, went home around 4plus. Then text w him, was actually quite a sweet and simple day but was kinda ruined when he told me something, and was a little upset. But ya, we're fine again :) Ha.

Alrightz, meeting Shuzhen later @ 10pm! :) Can't wait t meet her. Hopefully we'll take picha later. Cause now that i've lappy already it'll be easier for me to upload stuff. Heh, cya.

time check, 0724am

2010-01-03T07:24:00.002+08:00

Super awake now! Have been sleeping for like almost 24hours. Ha.

Well, I'm no longer working at Dolphin already. Cause something bad happened last night during meeting and I was vv upset about it. I was still hesitating actually but now tat I've overheard some stuff I've decided to quit, since King is leaving anyway.. I don't know how to work with the 2 new bosses now. Though one is very very nice but I can't accept the way the other handles issue. I know we can't mix personal feeling and work together, but I failed to do so thus I ended up being upset because of waitresses. They blamed me for covering up for waitresses' mistakes and don't wanna scold them cause I dote on them too much. Yes, my bad. But sometimes they also have to understand how waitress feel each time too. I know without management, the sales won't be there. Then why in the first place they wanna promote me to supervisor, then to Operation manager? I already told them I couldn't take the stress but they say I can do it, and only me who's the suitable one. I don't even think I suit the post.

But whatever it is, I texted Andrew that I wanna quit.
Might be going to other pub or take up day job, or perhaps go back studying. Not sure. We'll see..

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Anyway I feel like texting Bendan to tell him sorry. Cause I was vv upset and angry thus after meeting I was the first to stand up, and threw the keys at him and left the door straight away. I know its v rude but whatever. Now that I heard what he said after I left, Im so disappointed. I gave out so much to Dolphin, and ended up like this. Wtf man. Forget it.

And I wanna thank Ziyuan & Vincent for waiting for me below till my meeting is over, and were by my side at alley to wait for me to finish crying. Ziyuan has fallen sick because of me too. Feel so guilty. Coughing so hard and blood because he just want to find me at my workplace and wait for me till my work finishes, and helping me drink too. Haiz. Think Im gg to force him t see doctor later!

He's now sleeping behind me, so bored :@ Nobody t talk to. & Nobody's online either, 2 x :@!

2010-01-01T14:54:00.003+08:00

♥♥♥♥!

New year, new start.

Bought laptop already, heh! Happy girl me. And I'm superduper hungry now!!!! Argh! Always feeling hungry at home but not at fishball's house. :@

Hangover

2009-12-31T12:40:00.004+08:00

Hai, having hangover now since I came back this morning at about 9am. Hate this feeling. Cause I can't rest well for work tonight. I've about less than 7 hours before I start working. Pekchek!

Met Andrew yesterday & I've already chosen my laptop! Getting it today I guess. Then had Bak kut teh at opposite Clark quay central before walking around Riverwalk, and heading back to Dolphin aftermath. Wanted to chill, but end up working. Free labour somemore!

Then drank beer, which I hate most. I only can take martell or hard liqour, not beer. Cause I'll get more drunk easily (weird I know) but no choice, cause nobody wants to cover the beer tables so I did till the extend I had double vision, I texted Ahyuan and ask him come down save me! Rested at his table, talk cocked with Vincent. He really vvvv funny. Ha, then after work, had meeting, then continue to drink with Ahyuan & co till 8am, and he drove me home.

Countdown tonight, haiz. Hate festivals.
And I think my stomach has some problems already, keep vomiting stomach acid out and quite uncomfortable. Scared got hole cause of drinking like what Fishball said! And recently my liver, kidney area & heart area feel uncomfortable as well. Haiz.

Anyw, scroll down for my dedication post if you haven't done so!
Say hello to 2010 in a few hours time. Enjoy the last day of 2009!

2010! Warning- very long post!

2009-12-30T16:26:00.021+08:00

Today is the second last day of 2009. Like wow, each year passes so quickly! It's like an blink of eye and I'm going 18 soon!

Looking back, from my first year of secondary school till now, I realised I've changed really alot, and I believe from the good to bad, and bad to good now. I believe I've grown more mature in thinking wise, like able to hold responsible against my actions towards people around me, and of course myself and I really feel proud of myself, ha.

At this very moment, I would like to dedicate some short posts to certain people! :)

Firstly, to my ex, Bobby.
You're the one who walked with me through this almost-one year. Really thank you for those lovely memories we had in the past. I was lying down on my bed last night and thinking about the silly things we did last time, like how happy we were, how we disturb each other and fooled around, and those quarrels we had over the the recent few months which ended up with a full stop at the end. Though it was quite a pity but I've never regretted the decision of being with you, walking this long journey with you, despite the hurt we both gave each other and eventually leaving you. Really, I mean really, thank you for giving in so much to my stubborn attitude in the past, tolerating my nonsense and getting whatever I want in the past.

I guess I don't have to elaborate much here cause the things I'm going to say is the same as what I told you in those smses previously. Really hope you're doing well now and hopefully able to think more for people around you instead of for yourself. And lastly, good luck in everything you do in future!

Wynn sist! ♥♥
Hey sist, I know we've not been contacting much ever since I dropped out of school but I won't forget you, and you should know it too! Though I always only contact you once a while but you should know you're always in my heart! I know I don't often ask you out for dinner often now and only call you out when I've problems, and I've been feeling quite guilty about it but hey, you should know that you know me the best and you're the only one I can pour everything out to right. And for that I should be forgiven! Haha, okay joking! (Blame me for that, pouts!)

Thanks for being thr for me all these years and still being there for me up till now. I won't forget you teared the other time just because of the silly mistake of mine and yes, I'll promise not to touch those things again.

Thank god for sending you to me, and as much as I want to continue writing, words really can't express how much you mean to me, really.

Love you sister, xo! ♥♥

To my Secondary clique!
(Sueann, Peiqin, Harrison, Daryl, Wynn, Yifeng, Stephanie, Raymond)

Really miss every single one of you. Haven't been contacting you guys much after each one of us left the school but I won't forget the fun we had since our first year in Bendemeer secondary.

Yes, the fun, the joy.
Like how rebellion we are, disturbed teachers, skipping classes, running out of school, spoiling school's property, slacking behind @ the toilet area, smoking in school/block areas, finding troubles together, ended up in detention room, landed ourselves in trouble, seeing Discipline masters together, having recess in big groups, etc! (I still rmbr how we girls run away and hide from Miss aw because of our short skirt and untidy attire in Sec1 + 2!)

Ha, really miss those days! We've all seen each other grow up and changed with time, like from typical little lians and bengs to what we are now.

Well, really hope we can meet up really soon to do some catching up! And really glad to know every single one of you!

Lovelove! ♥
PS. I won't forget the special two, Peiqin and Harrison, whom I went through lots of ups and down with during my first sec 3 year :)

My Express class' clique! (2005-2006)
Kellyann, Fang Weijie, Edward, Weijun, Yuzhi, Airu, Harrison!
Think most of them don't read my blog already but still, yeah here you go!

Won't forget you guys okay! I rmbr how bad I was during that 2 years cause I'm always influencing others to condemn this guy/girl, lol! But still I really had many fun during the first 2 years.

I won't forget how I argue with Fangweijie everyday without fail till the extend of teachers asking us to go out to argue so we won't implicate the teacher, ha. But we eventually become very very good friends in the end. He's like a big brother of mine, and I realised I haven't been talking to him for like a year? But he was the one who stood by me whenever I have problems. Thankyou good friend, and I miss you!

And also Edward ng! My best of the best god-brother, really. He was the one who listened to my sorrows, then cheered me up without fail. I rmbr he gave me panadol and plaster with a strawberry drawn on it by him! :) I won't forget how emo he became or I became whenever we had quarrels. Heh. Luv you brother.

And to the rest of the clique, I still rmbr how you guys look like on the first day of school!
Kellyann and Airu with center parting! Harrison with his mushroom head! Yuzhi who always uses his orange comb very often! Edward who looked nerdy with his loooong shorts and pants! Weijun I think he has center parting too? Weijie has the better fashion taste at that time, ha. I rmbr he was the better looking guys that year and whenever girls sees him like seeing some superstar like that! But I don't find him attractive at all during that year, dislike him in fact! Haha, but definately not now.

Well, hope you guys have been doing well all these year and even better for the coming years! :)

My silly love, Tan Shuzhen; Potato!
Hello bitch, I hope you're still reading my rotting blog. Ha, sorry for not being able to accompany you for countdown this week cause I'm working. My deeeeepest apology love. But we can always meet up during weekends for shopping and dinner! Don't always think of your boyfriend(s)! Leave some time for me, ha! Okay joking.

I still rmbr we aren't close when I first know you and didn't really like you in the past cause you are really very kp! Ha, but until this year we got closer and I believe I'm the one who taught you the bad things! Like skipping class and all. Feel so guilty but I believe too, that you've enjoyed those free time we had. HAHA. Okay love, you should know I still love you even though we haven't been contacting much either due to my busy schedule and your boyfriendS. Eh joke! Ha.

MEET UP SOON K! Really miss your silly face and I heard that your make up become thicker and thus become prettier already uh! Want xian guys is it?! Lol! Okay lah, misses :-*

& not forgetting Melvin leong!
Thanks for healing my little heart, like what you said that time. Thanks for all the sweet little things you did for me and I'm really glad ta know you!

Please take good care of your own body because you're always falling sick too! Haha. Don't always work + hang out with your brothers till late hours and even when you reach home still don't wanna rest/sleep just because you wanna talk to me on phone/sms me. If you fall sick, who will talk to me, right?! :)

But still, thanks for those loooong hours of phone calls and sweet texts! I won't forget how silly/entertaining/funny/sweet you are whenever we chat on phone! Haha silly you! :)

And though you're mentioned below but that doesn't mean you stand the last place in my heart! You know you play a big role in my life as well. :)

& Ziyuan too!
I know this idiot don't read my blog but I'm gonna blog out as well!

Though the period we know each other is not very long but yeah we both shared the same fate and clicked very well! Though you always disturb me and I won't forget how you elbow me accidentally in the face the other time! And I won't forget the silly things you do when you were drunk or when you're sleeping. Ha. Glad ta know you fishybally! :>

To the rest of my schoomates + friends out there!
Thanks for stepping into my life and gave me so much joys and fun. Though I fell out with some of you and 've never talked ever since, but yes thanks for stepping into my life as well. Without you guys, my secondary years won't be complete. :)

& lastly, my Secondary school teachers!
Thanks for helping me through my secondary years. I know I've disappointed many teachers because I dropped out during my last year and didn't take the national exams. I know nothing can be done to salvage the situation now but yeah.. ha.

Like Julia tey. She pulled me back to stay in express stream despite my fucked up results, arguing with her due to my blogging thingy etc. (Kellyann, hor!)

And discipline masters like Mr Benjamin Kwok. He's always helping me, this problematic girl in school. And though I really dislike Miss aw in the past, because she always catches me for littlest thing etc, she's still one of the teachers who brought me back to track whenever I walked the wrong path.

But still, thanks to those teachers who taught me the right thing and helped me throughout my secondary years! :)
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I guess that's all for the dedications for this year.

To sum up,
I really want to thank every single one of you for stepping into my life, be it the good or bad!
Lovelove! ♥ :)

And goodbye to Bendemeer sec :')

2009-12-29T15:00:00.005+08:00

CURRENTLY BUSY GOGGLING/READING REVIEWS ABOUT LAPTOPS!

Fuck the current comp!
Gonna sacrifice my pay! I DON'T CARE! Angry ttm! :@ Can't insert songs into ipod due to different itunes library! Kanbu! :(

-3.59pm!
Going ta meet Andrew later! He's accompanying me to see lappy! Yay so nice of him! :D

Past is past

2009-12-28T16:56:00.004+08:00

Was reading through the blogs which I used to pen on, yeah happy memories.. :) But well, I'm not any worse off now! At least I'm happy with everything I have now :)

Paid phone bills and got ipod today. There goes my $500! And most exaggerating thing is that my bill is $296! Luckily my job's current paying is able to cover my heavy expenses phew. Will be getting another few hundreds by today or tmrw yay! Winky!*

Alright I'm super bored now.. sleepy, rather. Cause I slept for like 4 hours only and woke up.

Currently chatting with Mel and waiting for Fishball's message! :@

2009-12-26T06:42:00.002+08:00

MERRY XMAS TO ALL! :)
Especially to my love ones out thr!

& BIG THANKS FOR THOSE LOVELY SMSES TOO! :)
Pardon me for being lazy to send the greeting to every one in my contacts, yknw expensive! Ha, love all though xo. :)

Hope you guys 've enjoyed yourselves on this wonderful day with love ones!
And yes, I did too (winky!)

Alright, have been busy, okay more to lazy, lately. With personal life. Hehe, 've been enjoying every moment of it. Though xmas this yr is vvv simple, but I feel just satisfied :)

Had countdown @ Dolphin. And for once I felt "real xmas". Sprays, joy, screams, fun! :)

Well at the mean time I wouldn't be updating this space too much until my life has REALLY stable down and I'll tell you more about it! Heh.

Last but not least, I miss all my close friends out thr! Like Sist Wynn, Daryl, Sueann, Peiqin... etc. Meetup soon alright! Lovelove!

Shag

2009-12-21T10:58:00.007+08:00

Slept @ 530am. Chat with mel on fone & texted with Fishball. Both of them super nicey! Ziyuan wanted to accompany me till i fall asleep, ha. But nah, he gotta work tmrw so ask him to go to bed first :D

& MelvinLeong says I 've to blog a superrrrrrrr loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong post about him! Cuz he's special! Yeah okay, here you go!

Heading to JB in a few hours time! Can't wait to go back! Was vvv bored yesterday. Can't even go out to smoke cuz once I unlock the door, the whole house on alarm! Super dumb of me, and woke everyone up. Paiseh ttm. Ha.

I can like smell shopping! & Singapore from here!

But one thing, I sure toh on bed once I reach home. @@.

Just woke up at around 10plus in the morning :(

Super hungry nowwww!

Got spiked

2009-12-20T20:43:00.004+08:00

Yes, those pinky stuff. I won't forget, fuck that person.

Didn't go for work on Saturday cause I was not feeling well. Met Ahyuan under my house around 12plus. He superduper good! Drove over to fetch me over to Bq to get my money, and I accompanied him movie as he requested. He suppose to go for drinking, ha. Then yeah, slacked & chilled around. Bought tix for Body & Assassins. Not a bad movie! But too long already, 2hrs +. Sit till buttock pain. Ha, I wanna watch Fengyun!!! Maybe some other days. Heh. After movie, he sent me home & all. :)

Then rested awhile at home, packed stuff for my trip to Msia.

Met my cousin around 8. Then yeah, got car accident, wasted time, jam. Had Marrybrown! Super nice! I rmbr I like marrybrown alot when I was younger. Reached homeplace around 3plus. Fell asleep aftermath.

Now talking to Ahyuan fishball & Zen! :)
Stupid fishball keep scaring me only, tsk.

PS. Kinda miss Singapore already :(

2009-12-15T02:06:00.004+08:00

Mel wants me to change our memo cause he finds it too plain.
So I changed to this:

Lol! Okay what not bad right. Claps ta me. ;D
Neeeeway, didn't go for work today. Bet king gonna scream at me tmrw, and he's so gonna be disappointed with me. Cause I promised him that there wouldn't be any cropped up(s) but I'm one of the 4! Lol. Nigel say I should think of him when I'm getting scolded. Ha, ohwell. God bless.

Wasn't feeling well when I woke up today. Runny nose. Heaty all over. And nowadays my kidney kinda hurt. So I suppose I've been drinking too much lately. People tell me to be careful cause I might cough blood or cause internal bleeding if I continue to drink so much everyday. Arghhh!!! Touch wood!

'aight, shall call Mel now.

Oh ya, sist. Tell me when you gonna pierce. I wanna pierce back my piercings, hehe kinda itchy now! ;)

My sunday

2009-12-14T05:22:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to Jaychou's new song, 画沙. Not bad, kinda cute.

Just finished talking to Bendan, who's going to be my boss next month, for almost 3hours! Talking about waitress stuff & how to improve Dolphin's management. Kinda shocked that he will call me cuz I thought he only know how to disturb me when I'm working. Ha. Quite a pleasant chat though :)

Met Melvin & Zhonglian juz now. Was so shocked that they came over and are already outside the house. So no choice, had to bathe. Slacked with them, & had my first meal of the day. Listening to them talking about those unglam stuff, tsktsk. Then they left.

So now I'm like quite stuck. Waiting for mel, seeing if he wants me to call him or not. Lol.

Bomberman!

2009-12-12T20:43:00.008+08:00

Nice. King just threw a big big bomb to me! Please tell me he's just trying to scare me! :( I will die in a very ugly way if he's really throwing everything to me tonight. Like hello?!! It's saturday night! He just threw me to hell.

Argh! Stress.
But luckily my work is starting at 12am tonight.

I'm still thinking what to eat for tonight.
Fishball noodles from BK cafe? Cheese fries from VS? Chicken cutlet or Chicken wings from Golden cafe? Duck rice? Mac? Junk food?

I think I feel like eating Wanton soup + Chicken porridge leh! But boat quay don't have Wanton shop right?! :\

I rmbr I spent 1 hour thinking what to eat few days ago!
PS. Xiaobao said I grew fatterrrrr already!!!! :'(

Haiz. Sad.

Kinda miss the pig liver porridge in chinatown! Ha, random kbye.

Cb fucking shuai.

2009-12-12T10:12:00.002+08:00

The song is nice
+ the male lead is mother fucking cute and attractive!

I can listen to this song in pub continuously, ^^

Mind games

2009-12-09T12:53:00.007+08:00

I feel like the old-me is back omg so evil. But one thing for sure, You're so gonna regret if my guessing is right, pray hard yep! :)

-

Work was pretty fine yesterday. Slack in fact. But some unhappy stuff happened, but managed to solve it after work. Melvin came down to Boatquay to pass me mac, thankyou sososo much :) I thought he was saying for fun uh, ha. Then Wilson came by too! Bought me lollipopy :) Heh.

Sherlyn's birthday tonight, and I can totally see that I'm going to be drunk t'night even though its not my birthday! Haha, ohwellllllllll.

I'm vvvv hungry now pouts :(
Shd I go ta sleep nowwwwwww? Or wait for that ass' phonecall? ha.

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1738pm.

Shit, my eyes are like closing now. Starting work at 9/10. Pouts.

Texted, played audition & talked on phone with Melvin since 8plus in the morning. Yeah, was feeling energetic but now I think I'm getting sleepy already argh.

I don't want to fall asleep like the other time below!!!! :@

Loveeeeestruck!

2009-12-08T17:54:00.001+08:00

I wanna go Lovestruck @ Butterfac tonight :(

& I think I'm having some mood swing thingy now.
1750: Ok maybe not.

-

Going ta work later. Totally no heart to work anymore ever since the last incident. Lydia will be back though, to help out. Hopefully she can control the girls thr.

Cuz I'm tired already. Just wanna slack, ha. :)

Thinking of what I shd eat later at work. I've like eaten everything at Boatquay, lol! And my throat hasn't recover for months. I doubt I will stop coughing for a day.

Bored, super bored. Hopefully there'll be people I know coming to Dolphin tday so I can slack thr, ha.

Ok, guess I'm going ta get ready for work. And nua abit before gg down, bai.

Roses & hearts

2009-12-07T16:14:00.001+08:00

I want this pretty piece!

Sugar sweet

2009-12-06T21:26:00.005+08:00

Work was rather fine yesterday.

And was surprised to see Ivan!! :)))))))))))))
My super duper senior in school. Ha, he was like with Dino and I couldn't recognise him! It has been really long since I've last saw him. I still rmbr when I kept running away from home in the past, he was the one who kept me in his house. Lmao! & I still rmbr we had Pizzahut delivery at his house, and watch him dota etc.

And he never fail to talk about my typical seconday school days. Like always :s

Stayed back w Andrew, King, Bendan & my Aiai, Pammy! :)
Was like chilling at pub with R&bs playing at the background. Andrew supperrrr high, keep grind me only. Lol!

Cabbed back around 8plus in the morning with Pammy. Bathed, teeveed & chatted with Melvin on phone till 12plus? And headed to bed after that :)

Oh, he just called, ha. Cyaz.

A healing heart

2009-12-05T21:38:00.003+08:00

Saw mel's blog, idiot. Ha.

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Miraculously, I finished preparing for work in about 20mins yesterday! Haha, I usually take 1 hour.

So yup, mel called me and chit chatted while I'm on my way to work :) Reached there, and started ta play. Not a bad night though, but didn't have much r&bs playing to keep the atmosphere high. Ha.

Then Nigel came down after clubbing! :) He passed me a box of Eclipse. Hehe. As well as Javier! He came down like supperrrr last minute! And I didn't notice he was behind me all the while. Happy to see them both :):)

Nigel waited for me till my meeting is over cause he wanted to pass me stuff, & it was a big box of Strepsils cuz' he saw me coughing like mad while working. :)

After work, went to Kelvin's restaurant @ Bishan park with King, Andrew & Bendan for breakfast. Then Andrew & Bendan sent me home after that.

Andrew kept talking dirty w me! Ha, damn joke. Even the seafood shell w hair, he also can link to... hahaha!

Alrightz, nothing much ta update.

I'm quite happy now though :)

Melvin ♥ smelling my ass :)))))

2009-12-04T21:37:00.001+08:00

Super super bored now! Thinking of what to wear for work later.

Friday night.
Gonna be a busy night again pouts.

My tummy kinda hurt now.

When I say I can, I will.

2009-12-02T16:20:00.005+08:00

Luv you friend. :) ♥♥♥♥♥

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I'm not feeling good since I woke up just now. Feel like going drinking or do the usual stuff tonight. Sigh. Weird. Mixture of feelings. Goddamn it.

Oh ya I dreamt that I died twice in my dreams last night.

Down

2009-11-30T17:46:00.012+08:00

Suddenly everything came crushing down at the same time.
Relationship, friends, work..

I'm really tired already.
One after another.. wonder how I'm going to take all these up.

So after crying for an hour yesterday,
I thought it through and decided to choose the easiest way.
Numb myself towards everything :)

I've let go certain things already.
And yes, the feeling is quite good, really.
Its not heavy like what it is for the past few days.
I can breathe more smoothly now, ha-ha.

Oh well, let nature take its course.
PS: Thank you for the lovely 11months that we've gone through together. I've not regretted being with you all these while and its hard for us to come this far.

Though I always say break up and wouldn't turn back for the past 3-4 months, but I know I can't let go. But this time, I'm letting go because I'm tired. I surrender. I don't want to fall any deeper.

You should know the chances given to you is more than enough. Yet you still betrayed my trust, lied to me even I knew the truth and everything, and also cheated on me over and over again. My heart isn't made of metal, I can't possibly take such blows over and over again. You won't know how much it hurts when you got cheated and getting being lied to everytime. Though I really can't bear to let go, I still had to let go.

Someone told me something and I think it's very true: Going back to the relationship means you're giving the person another chance to hurt you again. I really agree very much to it. I don't have the energy to take all these up again..

But still, I think its worth all the while of ups and downs we had together. Through these incidents, it made me grow up alot too. Just rmbr what you've promised me, which is to change to a better person - not for me, not for others but for your own. It'll benefit you for your future relationships. And yup, you can always look up for me when you need someone or listening ear. And I know you will be there for me too. :)

& we might end up being together again in future. Well, leave it to fate :)

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Going over to Dolphin later.
Feel like burying myself with work.
So I won't think so much.

Yup, that's what I gonna do.

Shopping tml with love. Finally have ta time to meet her.
Gonna take a look at ipods too & get one this weekend? Heh.
Steamboat next with lovelys. (But I doubt ive the appetite ha)

Disappointed.

2009-11-29T13:55:00.011+08:00

I gave up too many things for this job already.

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Met Sist & Daryl yesterday @ Amk.
Had fun with them, really.
And I realised how much I miss those real fun I had in school,
those time when we gathered to talk.

Very right.
Life in school, being a student is the best.

Meeting king & all later at his house for dinner ltr.

2009-11-28T15:35:00.004+08:00

Hate to see and know the truth.
Really hurts so badly.

Drawn so closely now,
and in the next minute, we've distanced again.

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I need those stuffs again, like now.

Faggot.

2009-11-27T16:36:00.004+08:00

I hate it when people threaten me.

Recieved a couple of messages from this guy.
Yes, he was the one who stood by me,
when I needed a listening ear, or someone to be w me.
But now I just find it turn off to talk to him.
Maybe he's just a substitute, or smth else.
I don't know.

Bitchy me? Lol.

But still, he threatened to come down my workplace,
or my house to do some unfavorable things?

Oh well, just so disappointed to see this side of him.
But glad on the other hand.
It's just so scary to find someone who's like an angel all along,
to become a devil overnight.

Tsk.

Ohya, I've so called temporary quit or leave Dolphin
due to some personal reason.
I'm just like a failure, and letting everyone down
- can't do what I've promised.
I need a break maybe,
though I really would like to help king out.
I'm like a bastard now.

Sorry.

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Really hope shopping will make me feel better later. :)

Got me running

2009-11-25T15:17:00.001+08:00

Have not gotten my ipod yet.
Cuz didn't had the time on Monday as Stephy was at my house.
Cabbed to meet Bob & Dy at Stgeorge,
like wow long since I've stepped into that area.

Went to have my curry chicken rice + yam ring,
yummy! :>
then cabbed to Boat quay,
help settle waitress stuffs & wait for king.
Got my pay and headed to Town while dy left.
Walked over to Cine, bought tix for 2012,
my long waited show! But wow I slept in the movie.
Wtfwtf. I only saw a few parts :(
But I must say the show is really v exciting.
Sigh, i wanna watch movies againnnn! K fat? :)

Just got my Liese bubble hair color dye + lens.
For the dye, you just have to mix the dyes,
and message into your hair wow.
Shall see if it works later, ^^

I wanna go shopping badly! :(
And I wanna try going shopping alone!
Ha.

a'ight, I shall stop here first!

Happy monday!

2009-11-23T11:23:00.002+08:00

Off day today yay.
Waiting for fat to buy our breakfast back.
& Imma getting ipod today :>
Or maybe other mp3/4, shall go see later!

And I'm craving for Yam ring as well as Curry chicken rice.
Poutspouts.

Saturday, steamboat outing? :):)
Gonna text all the sweethearts later!

PS: I wanna go malaysia, maybe w the girls?

11th.

2009-11-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

Back ta blogger. What a fussy blogger I am, haha.

Alright, finally I'm able to have my own free time to tie up the loose ends for this week. Indeed a tiring week. Slept for like 3 hours, and heading to work daily. Falling asleep during work, falling asleep when the techno/r&b is blasting in your ears in the car etc. Can you imagine? Lol.

Have been meeting Tony & co with Stephanie this week, like almost everyday to their Serangoon house and hotel. Damn shag but still had fun :) But, I've decided to stop my bad habits alr. It's really tiring and I look really worn out :(

Just woke up after almost 15hours of sleep. 30 over miss calls, 30 over messages. Wow. But I'm lazy to reply, haha shall do so later. And had my ever first Mcspicy meal. Thanks fat for helping my call for delivery.

Happy birthday too.
Lovelove. :)

Gonna watch movies + shopping tml w him yay. Long since I added new clothes to my pathetic wardrobe!

Guess I shall end here, and blog shop hehe.

Oh ya wait, before I end off, drop me your link so I can link you over here! ;)