Suddenly everything came crushing down at the same time.
Relationship, friends, work..
I'm really tired already.
One after another.. wonder how I'm going to take all these up.
So after crying for an hour yesterday,
I thought it through and decided to choose the easiest way.
Numb myself towards everything :)
I've let go certain things already.
And yes, the feeling is quite good, really.
Its not heavy like what it is for the past few days.
I can breathe more smoothly now, ha-ha.
Oh well, let nature take its course.
PS: Thank you for the lovely 11months that we've gone through together. I've not regretted being with you all these while and its hard for us to come this far.
Though I always say break up and wouldn't turn back for the past 3-4 months, but I know I can't let go. But this time, I'm letting go because I'm tired. I surrender. I don't want to fall any deeper.
You should know the chances given to you is more than enough. Yet you still betrayed my trust, lied to me even I knew the truth and everything, and also cheated on me over and over again. My heart isn't made of metal, I can't possibly take such blows over and over again. You won't know how much it hurts when you got cheated and getting being lied to everytime. Though I really can't bear to let go, I still had to let go.
Someone told me something and I think it's very true: Going back to the relationship means you're giving the person another chance to hurt you again. I really agree very much to it. I don't have the energy to take all these up again..
But still, I think its worth all the while of ups and downs we had together. Through these incidents, it made me grow up alot too. Just rmbr what you've promised me, which is to change to a better person - not for me, not for others but for your own. It'll benefit you for your future relationships. And yup, you can always look up for me when you need someone or listening ear. And I know you will be there for me too. :)
& we might end up being together again in future. Well, leave it to fate :)
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Going over to Dolphin later.
Feel like burying myself with work.
So I won't think so much.
Yup, that's what I gonna do.
Shopping tml with love. Finally have ta time to meet her.
Gonna take a look at ipods too & get one this weekend? Heh.
Steamboat next with lovelys. (But I doubt ive the appetite ha)