Down

Suddenly everything came crushing down at the same time.
Relationship, friends, work..

I'm really tired already.
One after another.. wonder how I'm going to take all these up.

So after crying for an hour yesterday,
I thought it through and decided to choose the easiest way.
Numb myself towards everything :)

I've let go certain things already.
And yes, the feeling is quite good, really.
Its not heavy like what it is for the past few days.
I can breathe more smoothly now, ha-ha.

Oh well, let nature take its course.
PS: Thank you for the lovely 11months that we've gone through together. I've not regretted being with you all these while and its hard for us to come this far.

Though I always say break up and wouldn't turn back for the past 3-4 months, but I know I can't let go. But this time, I'm letting go because I'm tired. I surrender. I don't want to fall any deeper.

You should know the chances given to you is more than enough. Yet you still betrayed my trust, lied to me even I knew the truth and everything, and also cheated on me over and over again. My heart isn't made of metal, I can't possibly take such blows over and over again. You won't know how much it hurts when you got cheated and getting being lied to everytime. Though I really can't bear to let go, I still had to let go.

Someone told me something and I think it's very true: Going back to the relationship means you're giving the person another chance to hurt you again. I really agree very much to it. I don't have the energy to take all these up again..

But still, I think its worth all the while of ups and downs we had together. Through these incidents, it made me grow up alot too. Just rmbr what you've promised me, which is to change to a better person - not for me, not for others but for your own. It'll benefit you for your future relationships. And yup, you can always look up for me when you need someone or listening ear. And I know you will be there for me too. :)

& we might end up being together again in future. Well, leave it to fate :)

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Going over to Dolphin later.
Feel like burying myself with work.
So I won't think so much.

Yup, that's what I gonna do.

Shopping tml with love. Finally have ta time to meet her.
Gonna take a look at ipods too & get one this weekend? Heh.
Steamboat next with lovelys. (But I doubt ive the appetite ha)

Disappointed.

I gave up too many things for this job already.

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Met Sist & Daryl yesterday @ Amk.
Had fun with them, really.
And I realised how much I miss those real fun I had in school,
those time when we gathered to talk.

Very right.
Life in school, being a student is the best.

Meeting king & all later at his house for dinner ltr.

Hate to see and know the truth.
Really hurts so badly.

Drawn so closely now,
and in the next minute, we've distanced again.

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I need those stuffs again, like now.

Faggot.

I hate it when people threaten me.

Recieved a couple of messages from this guy.
Yes, he was the one who stood by me,
when I needed a listening ear, or someone to be w me.
But now I just find it turn off to talk to him.
Maybe he's just a substitute, or smth else.
I don't know.

Bitchy me? Lol.

But still, he threatened to come down my workplace,
or my house to do some unfavorable things?

Oh well, just so disappointed to see this side of him.
But glad on the other hand.
It's just so scary to find someone who's like an angel all along,
to become a devil overnight.

Tsk.

Ohya, I've so called temporary quit or leave Dolphin
due to some personal reason.
I'm just like a failure, and letting everyone down
- can't do what I've promised.
I need a break maybe,
though I really would like to help king out.
I'm like a bastard now.

Sorry.

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Really hope shopping will make me feel better later. :)

Got me running

Have not gotten my ipod yet.
Cuz didn't had the time on Monday as Stephy was at my house.
Cabbed to meet Bob & Dy at Stgeorge,
like wow long since I've stepped into that area.

Went to have my curry chicken rice + yam ring,
yummy! :>
then cabbed to Boat quay,
help settle waitress stuffs & wait for king.
Got my pay and headed to Town while dy left.
Walked over to Cine, bought tix for 2012,
my long waited show! But wow I slept in the movie.
Wtfwtf. I only saw a few parts :(
But I must say the show is really v exciting.
Sigh, i wanna watch movies againnnn! K fat? :)

Just got my Liese bubble hair color dye + lens.
For the dye, you just have to mix the dyes,
and message into your hair wow.
Shall see if it works later, ^^

I wanna go shopping badly! :(
And I wanna try going shopping alone!
Ha.

a'ight, I shall stop here first!

Happy monday!

Off day today yay.
Waiting for fat to buy our breakfast back.
& Imma getting ipod today :>
Or maybe other mp3/4, shall go see later!

And I'm craving for Yam ring as well as Curry chicken rice.
Poutspouts.

Saturday, steamboat outing? :):)
Gonna text all the sweethearts later!

PS: I wanna go malaysia, maybe w the girls?

11th.

Back ta blogger. What a fussy blogger I am, haha.

Alright, finally I'm able to have my own free time to tie up the loose ends for this week. Indeed a tiring week. Slept for like 3 hours, and heading to work daily. Falling asleep during work, falling asleep when the techno/r&b is blasting in your ears in the car etc. Can you imagine? Lol.

Have been meeting Tony & co with Stephanie this week, like almost everyday to their Serangoon house and hotel. Damn shag but still had fun :) But, I've decided to stop my bad habits alr. It's really tiring and I look really worn out :(

Just woke up after almost 15hours of sleep. 30 over miss calls, 30 over messages. Wow. But I'm lazy to reply, haha shall do so later. And had my ever first Mcspicy meal. Thanks fat for helping my call for delivery.

Happy birthday too.
Lovelove. :)

Gonna watch movies + shopping tml w him yay. Long since I added new clothes to my pathetic wardrobe!

Guess I shall end here, and blog shop hehe.

Oh ya wait, before I end off, drop me your link so I can link you over here! ;)